Time to get back into the swing of things?

I guess I should let you know what I've been up to while absent from blogging. On May 24, I lost my sweetheart. The cancer finally won. Tim tried coming home from the hospital on May 17 and it was not be. He went back to the hospital within an hour or so of coming home. While going through this I was called about a job I applied and interviewed for. I was to start work at the end of the month and I started to become very concerned about who would take care of Tim. I had heard from a nurse that Tim was considering hospice. I hadn't even been thinking that and so I was thrown a bit. I had emailed his oncologist at Karmanos Cancer Center to see if that was the best choice and that there was nothing else she could do, she emailed me back and said that's what would be best. I wanted to make sure every avenue was covered before talking to him about it. I really didn't talk to him about it as one of the doctor's from his primary doctor's group mentioned to Tim and he said he hadn't decided but was interested in receiving information. Later a person from the hospice came to talk to us about it, but Tim slept through the whole meeting. As I see it, God took over from there. For all the resumes I sent out while unemployed and didn't get a job, I believe it was because God wanted me to be there for Tim. Here is an old layout I made in May of 2008 using What Cancer Cannot Do poem.

So I've started my job and am working on getting everything else figured out. There are times I still cry, a certain memory, song or even a movie. I stopped by a friend's house and they had on Aeon Flux. That was a movie I saw with Tim, his friend and his friend's wife. We saw it when I visited Tim here in Toledo before moving here.

We'll be staying here as long as we can. Noah doesn't want to leave his high school and Mitch started at the community college taking a summer class. He will be full time in the fall.

It is so heartwarming to see Tim's Facebook page and all the wonderful condolences, thoughts and memories that friends and coworkers have posted. I've had some wonderful friends and family members pull me through and I am so very thankful.